Papa Don't Preach

My Dad was right. I jumped too quickly at this job because after being out of work for 5 months, I got a little desperate. I was scared another job offer wouldn't come along and with the program I'm in, I have to get a teaching job within 2 years. And I'm not planning on being here 2 years.

Now I'm regretting it a little. I had a great school district e-mail me yesterday about interviewing with them. Now, I know an interview is no guarantee for a job. But, if I did get the job, it would require me to break the contract I signed with the other school. Part of me feels like it's not too big of a deal to break the contract, they could find another teacher, but another part of me feels like I should honor what I signed.

I was going to set up an interview, but in my heart, I don't know if I could break the contract. Training starts this Tuesday. So I didn't set up an interview and at first I thought it was the right thing to do, but once again, I'm kicking myself. And I love Girard, but he's not helping much. For being so supportive of this job from the start, he's now all freaked out about the kids and the neighborhood the school is in.

I'm just absolutely terrified now that I've made this giant mistake and I'll wind up hating teaching. I also think I'm psyching myself out and the doubting every move I make needs to stop.

No real point to this post, just need to get it out. I think a therapist is in my future!

Some Disappointing News

Girard found out yesterday that the company he works for feels that right now, he could learn more in Dallas. This means that they are no longer holding the position for him in New Orleans and they're posting it on the job board. Girard offered to go back earlier to fill the position, but like I said earlier, they think he'd learn more here, blah blah blah.

This also means that when we go back, we might not be going back with the company, which sucks, because he really likes working for them, just not the Dallas boss.

However, they also told him that knowing how hard it is to fill positions at home, the job might still be open in a year. He also knows that he could "quit" and then go reapply in New Orleans when we go back. Ugh.

Don't get me wrong, Dallas can be cool, but it's also...unbearably hot, it never rains, it's spread out and everyone thinks that Texas is pretty much the best thing since, well, God.

Happy Birthday Clare!

Clare turned 8 on Tuesday...we had a luau party, complete with tiki torches and musical beach towels. We know how to throw down.



On another note, Maggie drove on the highway on Thursday. Um, so had a car been in the other lane when she decided to exit sideways instead of straight, well...I think you get it. Looks like she inherited her big sister's driving skills.

Another Career Path

If teaching doesn't work out, I think I'll definitely become a Pussy Cat Doll.

I saw them on Good Morning America, and the dancing consisted mainly of dropping it like it's hott and flailing their hair around, and I am an expert in both.

I just need some hair extensions, teeth whitening, a spray tan, a new wardrobe and to lose about 40 pounds. I think that's doable.

D, I hope work gets better for you soon, but if anyone can do it, you can!

KCMO

Here I come...I can't wait!

I'm Sleeping On It

I had an interview this morning. They called me about 30 minutes later to offer me the job! I really, really wanted to just say yes right away, but everyone insists I sleep on it and really think it through.

It's going to be a tough job. I'd be working with at-risk kids in the 7th and 8th grades. I'm not afraid of the kids, just afraid of failing them...but I feel in my heart that I might be able to do some good.

I tell the school tomorrow. Oh, and I am no longer allowed to pick a hotel and make hotel reservations. Since we got kicked out of our apartment because of the mold, we had to find a hotel, and the apartment people said it has to be under $100 a night. The neighborhood is safe, but the rooms, um, not so much. There was a leftover pee stain on the toilet when we first got here. Yummy.

So, any words of wisdom for me?

What's that smell?

Last night, Girard felt a wet area on our carpet. He pulled the furniture away from the wall by the wet spot.

Mold. Ew. On the wall, on the carpet...it had been hidden by the furniture.

The maintenance guy comes by and starts cutting into our drywall. Behind the wall--a broken pipe that is basically pouring water onto our concrete floor behind the wall.

They moved us into a model apartment last night and now have to move us to a hotel. Yayyy! Good times!

Breakin' the Law

Girard and I were at a party last night that got broken up by the police. Yep, we're badass.

Actually, it was a pool party that was perfectly harmless. A bunch of people in their 20s and 30s drinking beer and barbequing. Dangerous!!

Apparently we were disturbing the peace of one person in the apartment complex.

We all thought it was funny because the last time any of us had the cops called on us was either never or in college, but we decided to live on the edge with our Bud Lite and burgers.

Yesterday was my first day going to schools, and I have an interview with one of them next week! I am excited...just gotta keep my momentum up.

Wish Me Luck

Starting tomorrow and for the next 2 weeks or so I will be going around to schools and giving them my resume. Cross your fingers that someone hires me. I want to teach so badly!

Also, sidebar...

Shiloh Nouvel? What are everyone's thoughts on Brangelina's baby's name?

Mambo Momma

She'd had a few cocktails at this point...

Product Plug

Okay, so I've used self-tanners before with disastrous results. I love tanning beds, but I'm terrified of looking 50 when I'm 35. I decided to give self-tanners another try.

So, the other day I went into Bath & Body Works and got two things, both by True Blue Spa:

1. Hello, Sunshine! Self-Tanning Face Puffs
2. Strike Gold Sunless Tanning Lotion with Bronzer

They actually worked...I mean, it took time and patience to make sure the lotion was on right, but it worked! I was nervous because the face puffs don't have color to them and so you can't see where you've put it on, but it worked too!

I don't look orange! I look like I came from Fiji (well, let's be realistic here--I don't have that kind of cash). I look like I came from Gulf Shores!

Okay, I'll Admit It

If you haven't seen the Grey's Anatomy season finale stop reading.

I have a few confessions to make. Please try not to laugh too hard.

I got teary-eyed when they put Doc down.

I cried when Denny died and Izzy started bawling.

I thought it was sweet when Karev picked Izzy up to comfort her and it made me cry some more.

And I yelled (at the television) when Meredith and McDreamy hooked up.

Girard came in the room, saw me crying and yelling, and walked out.

Happy Belated Mother's Day

I thought I'd post a video too...it's what the cool kids are doing. These guys are so funny!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bhcA4Ry65FU

I'm not a girl...not yet a woman

I think there should be a rule that certain people should not be able to procreate.

Namely K-Fed.

I can't believe Brit is preggers again. Actually, I can.

Uh Oh

This could be trouble. I'm watching my little sisters for a few days while the 'rents live it up at the Derby.

Maggie has already asked me to lie to one of her friends' grandmother and pretend to be our mom. She also has plans for Cinco de Mayo. She's 15. Am I the only loser that didn't really live it up for this holiday until college?

Oh dear.

Okay, this has got to stop. I find myself looking forward to 11 a.m. because that's when All My Children comes on. I like soap operas, but wow, I need to wean myself off of that show.

I'm pretty good about keeping myself busy most of the day with applications and stuff, but I can't break my habit.

Oh, and I also ate some of G's dark chocolate Easter bunny. You snooze, you lose.

They Say It's Your Birthday

Happy Birthday Cassie! Hope your 25th is a wonderful one. Wish I was there to celebrate with you!

It just keeps on comin'

So my car didn't start the other morning.

I spent an obscene amount of money getting it fixed a week ago.

On the plus side, I get a sweet loaner car.

God, please--let a job fall out of the sky for me. I'm starting to doubt myself.

History in the making...

Def Leppard and Journey.

Saturday. July 29th. Dallas. Be there.